More Hot yoga

So good thing I'm not that sore from wednesday's hot yoga because I'm doing it again today!  But I totally feel it in my abs yayy! I only lost 1.4lbs so far but whatever it's only been 2 days. Hoping today I can lose half of a pound, we shall seeeeeeee. Let's review calories from yesterday....

Oatmeal 210 cals
1 jameson shot 70 cals
chicken pieces? ? (It was the only thing at work :/ I was gonna pass out!) maybeee? 500 at the MOST.
honey mustard 100 at MOST!

ESTIMATED TOTAL....  880 cals.

at least I def stayed under 1,000 yay! and I left purposely when they brought in the pizza.

I'm about to go make my oatmeal now...

less blogging = more weight

UGH I'm so mad at myself. I don't even know where to begin. Let's start with if you fall you have to pick yourself back up. Problem is I fell... hard. So this is what I'm doing... picking myself back up. I am at the all time low... rock bottom... the heaviest I have ever been. One thing is for sure, I am determined. My clothes don't fit that is a giant reality check. I'm in a wedding in september and I don't fit in the size 2 dress I was fitted for in december, ( this is my motivation). Blogging really REALLY HELPS me stay on track. It really does keep me honest with myself. I'll weigh myself tomorrow and go from there. I just don't understand how all of this weight was put back on. FML. I went to hot yoga today. INTENSE. I have a date with a pretty hot guy on friday, nothing to wear. I'm just ranting right now but it's helping me get my thoughts straight. I just watched a bunch of before and after weight loss videos on youtube, very inspiring. Taylor swift's videos make me just want to never eat again. she is soo hot and gorgeous and the guy from the back to december video I would just rape him. I'm going to take a 20 mg adderall tomorrow and see where that takes me... I will weigh myself first thing naked after I pee and use that as my starting weight. I'm going to guess I'm at 145 which would be my highest. I'm going to restrict my calories to 800- 1200 a day and NEVER GO OVER. hopefully I'll get lots of workouts in. Writing everything down is key. It really keeps me in check. I think I'll get a new "food diary" tomorrow. something small I can take with me. I like the lose it app but theres somthing about writing it down which just helps me more. blogging first thing tomorrow. sleep tight xoxo

question!???

what is the most amount of weight you guys lost in 2 weeks? Or how much do u think is possible to lose in 2 weeks?

can't make the gym today ugh :(

Breakfast: oatmeal     160
                 milk            60
                 clementine 35
Snacks:     Grapes       60
                  almonds    55
                  2 clemintine 70
                  2 rice cakes  120
Lunch:       turkey       20
                  wrap          50
                  tuna           60
                  mayo         35
                  spinach       5

today

breakfast: clementine    35 cals
                grapes           60 cals
                rice cake       60 cals

Lunch:    tuna               60 cals
               tortilla            50 cals
               mayo             35 cals
               spinach           5  cals
               rice cake        60 cals
               clemintine      35 cals

Snacks:   peanut butter 180 cals
               chocolate       200 cals

Dinner:   Boca burger     70 cals
               mayo                35 cals
               spinach               5 cals
               broccoli             40 cals

Total: 940 calories
burned: 800
+140

3/1/2011

Breakfast: Oatmeal 160 cals
                milk         60 cals
               clementine 35 cals
Lunch:     tortilla       50 cals
                mayo        35 cals
                spinach       5 cals
                turkey        80 cals
                clementine 35 cals
Snacks:    rice cake    60 cals
                rice cake    60 cals
               clementine   35 cals
               maria cookie 25 cals
Dinner:     bocca burger 70 cals
               mayo            35 cals
               onion/spinach  5 cals
               cheese          45 cals
               broccoli         60 cals 
TOTAL 855

HI HIIIIIIIIIIII

So just got home from a date on the UES with an ex. wowwwwww He's so hot. what is my problem? I just don't like him in a sexual way, wish I did :(. We got some amazingggg sushi, and great drinks, thank god I worked out at the gym today!!! BTW I'm a little tipsy.... food diary as follows...

Breakfast: Oatmeal 160 cals
                milk         60 cals
               clementine 35 cals
Lunch:     tortilla       50 cals
                mayo        35 cals
                spinach       5 cals
                turkey        60 cals
                clementine 35 cals
Snacks:    grapes       60 cals
                rice cake    60 cals
                rice cake    60 cals
                clementine 35 cals
                tall skinny caramel latte
                                100 cals
Dinner:     sushi (lobster roll) guessinggggg??
                                 350 cals
Drinks:     Vodka soda x3
                                  180 cals
Just under    1,300 TOTAL (about 100 more than my MAX but oh well had a great time)

Burned 800 at the gym

ready to go to they GYM TOMORROW AND BURN A WHOLE LOT AND EAT A WHOLE LOT LESS!

I need blogging back in my life

Hey everyone. So I really need you guys to support me, haven't been doing great at all, went through a mini depression during january and february. Today I did A LOT of thinking and I realized I really need to get my life organized and get back to the gym and eating healthy again. I really don't want to weigh myself because I already know that I am fat. Today I realized that I am ready to commit and that's how I know that I am going to get to my goal. Went to the gym and I feel great burned over 800 calories and can't wait to go again tomorrow! I walked to and from my friends apartment 45 min each way. One of my goals this week is to post a blog everyday with my workouts and food diary. GOTTA KEEP ON TRACKKKK! xoxo

Breakfast: high fiber oatmeal 160 calories
                 milk                         60 calories
                 clementine               35 calories
Lunch:      minestrone soup    200 calories
                 honeybell                 47 calories
Snacks:     rice cake                  60 calories
                 dried mango             50 calories

TOTAL:                                 612 calories

Burned                                    800 calories

a little thinspiration before bed/to wake up to.

ok this girls body is sick... got the pic of youtube. come on... i would killlll to look like this! GOAL GOAL GOAL!!!!

back on my grindddd

sup guys sooo new year new me. spending this time working on myself. oh that's right I'm doing me. only ate a lean cuisine. 290 calories... I don't want to eat much more. we will see. hopefully get a work out in too. oh btw i gained weight. fml.  135 lbs exactly. but i plan on dropping 10 lbs super quick!

FOOD DIARY

Today I weighed in at 129 lbs... which is ok considering thanksgiving and that whole weekend was beyond horrible I gained 3lbs in one week!... but now I lost it so I'm back to where I was before Thanksgiving! I have 16 days to lose 9 pounds... possible??? I'm going to make it possible!! I'm going home for christmas break on december 17th so I'm determined to be 120 lbs by then! I'm going back to recording my food diary on here and hopefully you guys can give me more tips and tricks to eat less and lose more! I took the oxyeliete pro around 11 am and I just ate breakfast now...

breakfast:
1 hard boiled egg 70 calories

630 calories

It's 7:30pm here in nyc and I ate a grand total of 630 calories. now if only I don't eat anymore for the rest of the day. I didn't get a chance to go to the gym today, but definitely tomorrow. My friend just texted me she works for a casting company and wants me to be in a commercial for marshalls. I'm not sure yet, I still feel so fat ugh. One of my best guy friends of all time is coming to visit me this weekend. I don't know if this is going to be weird or not. We have been friends for six years, and everyone thinks he is madly in love with me, but I never really noticed. We never hooked up before and I just don't see him that way. I have a trundle bed he can sleep on for the two nights let's hope things don't change between us!

I deleted my facebook account because I was sick of stalking my ex. I miss him. I miss us being so close. I dont want him reading my wall or seeing all of the clubs and places I've checked into. I just want him to text me to see how I'm doing... not rely on Facebook for all of the details. Meanwhile I got like a million texts "WTF YOU DELETED YOUR FB???!!" yupp... i have a feeling it's only going to last a few weeks...

stay skinny :)

"Lose It" app

whatsupppp everyone?!? So the weekend threw me off with thanksgiving and partying and eating out etc. But I'm back on track. I've been sick over the weekend ugh. I haven't been losing weight on days when I fast, I seem to stay the same... but when I eat low calories I always drop the weight. Today so far has been good! I've been using the "LOSE IT" app on my iphone. I loveeeee it! It's so easy to count calories! I've been adding every little thing I put in my mouth so I can't lie to myself. I set my goal at 2 lbs per week( the most it would let me) , which lets me eat about 1,000 calories a day, but I don't want to eat THAT MUCH... so I'm aiming for no more than 800 a day for the next month... I plan on burning off around 600 at the gym. We shall seeeee!

el preggo?

so yesterday I was freaking out because I know it has been about 6 weeks since I got my period. I only had sex twice since my last one  (sadly) so i figured it was almost impossible that i would be pregnant. to be safe i went to duane reade and bought a $17 test. i opened it and went into the bathroom.... pulled down my underwear and sure enough there was my period. WTF ha. So anywayyyyy now I'm so bloated and thats all i think about is FOOODDD! I was doing so great today ate nothing but a tiny muffin... burned 600 calories on the elliptical...  and then my door bell rang. my aunt sent over 2 dozen chocolate cookies!!! damn you period and chocolate cravings!! I think I ate 3 :( oh well at least I worked out. Tomorrow I'm going to the gym hopefully burning 1200 calories and I'm going to have broccoli for dinner. I don't want to weigh myself because I KNOW i am bloated... I always feel like a fat pig this time of the month...


ciao... hopefully I'm thinner tomorrow than I am today!

a little thinspiration before bed

magic brownies

omg I ate the magic brownies... more weed than I thought!!! I WAS SO HIGH. FML I didn't realize how much I ate and I honestly don't even want to know/ or even think about it.... SO MOVING ON... water fasting today... just got back from the gym burned 550 calories and going back once more after class to hopefully burn another 500... Definitely water fasting tomorrow and wednesday as well and going to the gym . I normally take 1 oxyelite but today I'm taking two... going to weigh in thanksgiving morning! agh hoping for 126!!! 

Thanksgiving... Mind over matter and I won't get fatter.

As you know, I live in NYC, most of my friends including I have to work on thanksgiving day because everything is open. That being said, we are celebrating Thanksgiving today.  I'm freaked out. All of my favorite food is going to be put in front of me today. I don't really have any other plan but will power and self control (oh and oxyelite).  This is going to be the biggest temptation for me yet. ugh. Any suggestions would be amazing! xoxo

I made a really cute bracelet yesterday :) It's full of little fruits and veggies to remind me what to eat. I'll try to wear it everyday so I think before I put something of my mouth. I'll take a pic later and post :)

OXYELITE PRO

hey guys soooo I decided since I don't have enough SELF CONTROL on my own I need a little boost. I don't know if any of you ever heard of this stuff but it's supposed to be great! (let me know if you ever tried it) One of my good friends started taking it and lost 20 lbs over summer! Completely going to kill my appetite! I just took one before breakfast. About to eat my oatmeal and take my vitamins. Since I gained SO MUCH I'm going to take the rest of the week lightly. I'm only going to eat my high fiber oatmeal (160 calories) and then a chicken salad (about 300 calories). Definitely going to hit the elliptical after class for an hour.... Then I have to write a six page sociology paper due tomorrow morning ugh! 

IF ANYONE HAS ANY TIPS TO GIVE ME SELF CONTROL AT RESTAURANTS PLEASEEEEE COMMENT! GOING OUT WITH FRIENDS IS MY WEAKNESS!!!! ESPECIALLY MEXICAN!! BECAUSE THEY JUST PLACE THE CHIPS RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU!!!

GAINED 2 LBS FUCKKKKK MYYYY LIFEEEEE

I heard a quote " you don't drown by falling in the water, you drown by staying there." I'm not going to drown. Even though I gained two pounds I'm going to rework my plan and keep going. I'm wasting my time writing this, first thing, I'm eating my oatmeal, and heading to the gym to burn 800 calories! wish me luck!

FAT ASS

soooo I feel like a total FAT ASS! I fucking ate so much this weekend and DRANK A LOT and didnt work out once! i think i definitely gained but I'm not weighing myself till tomorrow. This past weekend was just FUCKING CRAZY! I was bartending on sunday and met a guy from australia :) he is soooo HOT ( i mean drop dead gorgeous... my friends were in awww) I had to get his number (of course I did) we went out for drinks that night, I got so completely wasted I went home and threw up (don't really remember that part but so i hear from my roommate). He texted me yesterday morning saying that he booked us dinner at Betel. It was a really nice restaurant! Got a bottle of wine and 7 COURSES ! I ate so much!! he brought up how he loves girls that eat and he hates girls that are too skinny or just orders a salad. HE CONTINUED TO PUT FOOD ON MY PLATE. anyway what a sweetheart I wish more american guys were like him.... too bad he left for mexico today :(

Today I did okay I'm getting back on track. I went on the elliptical for an hour and burned 600 calories. I ate high fiber oatmeal for breakfast (160 cals), took my vitamins, and i had a salad for lunch/dinner(maybeee 350 cals). My roommate is trying to make my ass fatter and made cookies. I had 3.... there's 180 cals in 2.. so whats that??... (270) cals ouch!!! total 780 cals

stupid fucking cookies i hate you!!! anyway gym and the dreadful weigh in first thing in the morning!!! I NEED SOME NEW INSPIRATION AND MOTIVATION!!! off to youtube before bed to check out some thinspos NITE NITEEE XOX